The cry of a teenager

I’m really sick of this, it can’t go on anymore. The pain that I have gone through is unimaginable, it is over my shoulder, I can’t bear it any longer . Yes, what I do know is that I exist for a purpose, a purpose that is now beyond my reach, a purpose that is far from the reality. What have I done that I have to suffer these pains? I don’t really know what I am supposed to do, the stresses are too many, I can’t handle them any longer. I don’t know when will this ends.

The expectations are many, the freedom is less, so tell me how can I do all these in this situation? How am I to achieve your expectations? Your persuation to become and to do the things that I didn’t want to is choking me. Why? Why? I need an answer, why do you want to live my life when you have yours? Why can you be satisfied with the way I am? Please answer me. I’m really tired of this, please let me live my own life, let me be the person I want to be, I know that as parents you want to see your child scale up higher mountains and hills, you want to be proud of your child but is this the way? No mama this is not the way……let your child choose his own career, his own goals, his own future…..let your child be happy at least for half of his life because half is already wasted. This is my plea, please don’t let your child become waste when there are lots of potentially in him…I’m devastated, I’m done……


Never Give Up

Never Give Up


What’s your excuse for giving up your dream? What are the problems that knocked you down? How much did they pay you to let go of the goals that  supposed to change the person  you are? Are you afraid to go higher? Are you afraid to get out from your comfort zone? If these are the reasons and excuses then get the shit out of your mind.

For sure you know that every success story is a story of a great failure and flaw. The only difference is that successful people never allowed themselves to be outwitted by the failures they encountered. They never gave up, instead they bounced back with more energy and enthusiasm.

Everyone would have every success that he/she wanted if there were no obstacles. Your challenge is to be persistent and work through those obstacles. Therefore the watchword of life must be NEVER GIVE UP….. dare wildly, act courageously and live the life you desire. Don’t give up before miracles happen.



 The heaven came down heavily, the wind was at its worse and the thunder and lightning were still showering lazer lights onto the earth. All hell broke loose, the doors banged, the windows shattered, the monstrous wind kept blowing forth and wide and the tall bamboos kept on obeying the wind, AMIDST ALL THESE there stood a tall big tree with its big trunk and branches covered with leaves. The cattle’s, cows, sheep, goats, all were under the tree, seeking protection from the tears of heaven

.The window

All of a sudden, the thunder began roaring again, poor animals begun trembling going round the tree making their own sounds, pleading the heaven to be good with them. Among them, the goats have the youngest one. The elder goat (probably the mother) tried her best to guard her young one, the baby goat on her part kept on clinging to her mother.

Oh, what a pitiful scene, the rage of heaven and earth continued for about half an hour, slowly and gradually one by one the animals started going away. The mother goat was the last to move out from under the tree after her baby. Happiness now appeared on the young goat as it got to roam around jumping and dancing on our garden.

      Oh, I really want to find out how did it felt at that moment being a viewer of such scene from my broken bedroom window. I wish I could be that young goat clinging to its mother. But, how could I, since my world has gone.

  The loving kisses and hugs that my mama showered on me whenever the thunders of life came upon me and whenever the wind of life tried to carry me away, all have gone along with her. Oh, how much I missed them now.

 Within couples of minutes, the nature broke loose again, now with so much rage and anger, but the cattle weren’t there anymore. I put a cardboard on the broken window glass and went to bed bidding good byes to my mama and to her loving and beautiful peaceful smile.

An Open Letter To You Dear Ex..


People say that Love is blind but to me it is just the opposite, it actually opens my eyes to see the world where love plays an important part in our relationship. It really teaches me about, what family, friendship and relationship is. It teaches me an important lesson in my life. It brings  me a lot of happiness and joy . For me personally love has no end, it is just like the vast blue sky that never fades away.

I am glad to write this open letter to you, you may think that I am out of my mind just like you were saying to me when we were together, but no I’m not. I write this open letter because I have no other means to communicate to you, though we live in the world of technology. I don’t want to mention the details now but as you read ahead you will come to know what a heart once upon a time you broke is still remembering you. Let me come to the point now.

I still really don’t know what really happened to us on that fateful Easter Holiday. It was very difficult for me to accept the fact that you want to end our tender and blooming relationship so suddenly. I didn’t have any glue what went wrong between us. I didn’t really know what was the reason and whose fault it was, whether it’s yours or mine, moreover I didn’t understand why you didn’t come to me by yourself and said that you just want to finish it off but you just sent those parting words by your friends not even counting me as a human, think now if I was doing that to you what would you have done? I was left with no words to say coz you just didn’t want to meet me and talked to me, I sent you mails, I send you sms, I called you but you didn’t reply. Is this the way we ought to be? Dear, I know that I was not as good and intelligence as someone else and I was not as perfect as you wanted me to be. I, you know as a human, I have many weaknesses and I didn’t want to deny that because it’s a fact.

I use to remember the days when we were together especially the days before I wanted to tell you that I love you, but those days now are just like clouds that faded away when rain comes. I thought that our love would last longer but it was just for a short time but even during those short times I’ve learned a lot from you, I’ve learned that in love, it doesn’t mean that we would be always on the right track or lines, there would be always something in between that would hampered our love.

Dear EX, I knew that you always wanted to be with me and I with you, you wanted me to talk to you, chat with you and make you smile and sometimes cry, but I firmly believe that love is not about being together bodily all the times, it is rather being together in one heart and mind that would make our relationship grow and prosper day by day. Dear I don’t want to lie to you. During those days I really want to be with you but I didn’t have enough time because I could not gave up my studies. I had to take care of my academic performance. I didn’t want to mention this as an excuse. I really loved you girl those days but found it difficult to express. Sometimes I just felt like you just wanna tried on me or you just want to test me as a person.

When I looked back now I have a doubt that you suspected and doubted me during those days when we were having fun. I really didn’t know why you wanted to part away from me, and now I want to know why because I can’t forget you.

After we broke off, you know, I was like a daydreamer, but the whole world know me that as a never give up guy, I didn’t allow those things to stop me from beginning a new life with out you. I knew that I needed to carry on with my life. It was after so many months we talked to each other again. I still remember the day when I asked you if we could be friend again, you just smile and come closer to me. I can’t forget you really; you got stuck in my mind. Now it’s been four years since I last saw you. I tried to call you but you already change you phone number, I tried to reach you but I could not.

I miss your smile and those dimples on your cheeks, I miss your bosom coz I didn’t get a chance to lie my head anymore, I miss your soft and lovely hands that used to touch my hair, I miss your sweet voice that sang that song “chei won kattu” by Ram suchiang. The one thing I asked of you now is to forget the wrongs that I have committed. I really miss you; I wish that we can meet again. Take care. I still love you. I’ll never allow the west wind to take away your face from my mind.

Bye take care, still loving YOU

From your Ex, Garmylo Pdang.


The Purpose O Life

What life meant for? Life is meant to give out the love to someone whom you really love and care. The purpose of life is to live it to the full according to your own capacity, you can choose your own way of living it, either good or bad or both, but if you live the bad way or the good way or both you must enjoy it. The primary purpose of life is to love. If love is not present in your life, then what’s the use of living? The best possible way to live your life to the fullest is to accept everything that comes in your journey to the grave or to accept anything happily that has been given to you.

Most of the time we try to show our love to others by trying to be or trying to live or imitate their lives. What is the use of trying to love or to live a life resembled to other person when you yourself don’t want to love your own body, your own life and your own self? You need to question yourself, are you hypocrites trying to love others when you yourself hate your own life, are you not happy with your life that you have to imitate others? Do you love and care much for yourself as you care for others? Why your life is suck? Friends if you try living the life of others, half of your own life is gone. Even if you try to bring it back you will never get it again. Plus going back to the past is of no use, you will just waste the half of your life again.

The Purpose Of Life

Many of us often asked why things happen like this? How I will do that or do this is or those things? I want to be happy but I do not know how to be happy? I want to live a good life but I cannot and I do not know how? The answer to all this questions is very simple, “Accept of who you are” Accept yourself, be happy with yourself. Troubles, difficulties, problems  do come in one’s life ,but you cannot run away from them, they will be behind you everywhere you go, they will block you, they will crush you but what you must do is just live a life of happiness amidst these things. Enjoy your problems, gave them a chance in your life, but never run away from them, and if you do, change tour attitude before they would be standing on your head.

If you try running away from them, prepare yourself to fight till your last breath and there is no doubt that you will lose the fight and become depressed and this intent will kill your inner self. It will destroy your inner power and your inner strength and it will never allow you to live a normal life again, unless you really want to challenge to fight with yourself.

Love your life no matter what. The more you love it the more you will find that you want to live longer. Life is also about love. Giving out the love you have to others is indeed helpful. Because others will shower the same love what you give them or even more. But if you want to live your life with happiness you need to give out and share what you have and what you do not have with others.

Love builds a good life there is no other thing which can help building a life which is beautiful and gracious. So live your life according to the way which the creator wanted you to live.



Why Parents suck

My mom always told me to be a good boy, yeah I know that she cares about me and loves me, but there are other things which I hate about her. Like wanting me to follow her dream and not mine, comparing me with others, tracking my friends, constantly asking me who is that girl, is she your girlfriend?, don’t go or befriend with that guy he/she is not good. You know I hate all these sucking things.

Did You know why I give the title of my article as Why Parents SUCK it is because today parents are so different from the early days. In the life of a young student, did you know who give more stress? is it the books? is it the exam or is it the teachers? but I’ll say that it is the parents who give more stress, even if you don’t agree with me.

Parents now a day want to get into the business of their child always. They want to know where their son or daughter goes or what kind of friends he or she makes, I don’t want to say that they should not do this, they should do it but not always because sometimes the child gets irritated and become rebellion.

Why Parents suck

What parents want their children now a day is to expect them to follow what they want and not what their children want, this is insane because every child is wants to do what he/she wanted to do.

The parents have become just like mosquitoes flying in the ear lope making a disturbance, they constantly tell their children to be like them, comparing them to other children, it is the same just like harassing.

Why in the hell they want their children to follow them? Instead of encouraging their children to follow their own dreams. Is this good for both the parents and the children both physically and emotionally. Parents should be source of inspiration for children and not stumbling blocks, they should give hearts to their children rather than demoralizing them.

Living in this world for many youths now is just living in hell. They found themselves unwanted at home if they didn’t obey their parents. Because of the things that had happened at home, many youths now have taken the wrong route, that is the route to self destruction. They indulged in many unsocial activities which in turn led them into jails and death. Now who is responsible? The children or the Parents?

The only one who can answer this question is YOU

To the parents: Don’t let your young son’s and daughter’s  life becomes shit. Respect the decision of your child and become  supporting mates for your child in the journey of HIS/HER life.

Where Are YOU

Where are YOU

 I often wonder how you’re getting without me

I fear that I failed to protect that I denied you

I thought that, that day would be a fine day


That you have cheated me hurts me

No one knows how I feel now

I saw that the clock had stopped

That you should say what you

Didn’t mean is very strange.

I didn’t see how you got out of this mess.

I don’t know what you really want

You never complained

Except that the day was cold

I went to see you to keep you warm

Till now I didn’t understand how it all happened

I paid attention to whatever I was hearing from you

It grieved me to hear that now

 You kept me aside.

I want to know how far it is from where we were,

I did begged you that my love be spared

I think you have made your choice and I respect that

But I would like to ask you

Can you guess what I really mean?

How our love get to an end is still a mystery

It is uncertain that we will be together again

I don’t know what we will be

Had you heard me crying

You would have understand

But now I understand what LOVE is

Which you taught ME

Where are you now I want you back again.


live life

Life has so many ups and downs. It is a long process even though it is too short. It is sometimes like a tomato getting crush in the grinding machine, but the most remarkable thing is that the tomato after getting crush produce a good chutney.

So in our lives, we undergo a lot of painful crash,  which we as human sometimes fails to understand the value of those of those painful crushes.

Life is what we make it. It depends on how do you live it be it for bad or for good purposes. We sometimes tend to look only at the future and often forgot to look at the present. Living in the present is the best thing that we as human must do. It is futile to think of the future unless you start living the present.

So STOP looking or wondering about the future when you don’t even know how to live the present. Live your life to the fullest and enjoy it because you live only once. Enjoy your life.

Live according to your wish and not the wish of other. Sometimes you can’t just please all the people around you.